My Testimony

   Recently I went to a co-worker's baby shower, and when it was over, I walked away without feeling like I wanted to find a corner and cry. Seriously. That's a big deal. I can't count the baby showers, bridal showers, or weddings I've attended where I had literally had to fight the tears. I'd hold myself together until I got home, then let myself have that cry.
​   But not this time. I watched the mommy-to-be, looking adorable and sweetly tired, and felt nothing but happiness for her and her husband. They will be awesome parents, living out their faith in God before their little son.
​   Shortly after the shower, a day or two later, another co-worker's precocious son unexpectedly stopped by my classroom before school started. Out of the blue, the sweet and curious second grader asked if I was married yet. I believe his exact words were: "Are you not married yet?"
​   When I gave my standard answer that no, I was not married yet, he proceeded with his next question, asked with a trace of impatience: "When are you gonna get someone?"
​    After I explained that I didn't know when I was going to "get" someone, he promptly turned around and scurried away, ready to begin his school day.
​   Whereas me? I searched my feelings. No sharp pierce to the heart at the reminder his innocent (if not nosy!) question stirred. I felt like laughing. Yes, I'm still unmarried and no, I don't know when I'm finally going to "get" someone. But instead of wanting to chase him out of my room, I chuckled when he left and wondered where those random questions came from.
​   So, I'm amazed once again at God's provision and at how far He's brought me. These two separate events showed me once again the healing He's applied to my heart. Do I still long to be married and have my own baby? Sure. No doubt. But for now, I'm okay. God's given me a testimony to share, and I'll share it as long as I'm able. (Even if I do wait months between blog posts!)
​   I'm in His will. I'm in His hands. And I'm safe...
                                                                                                                       In His Grip!
​                                                                                                                       Crystal