This time of year always brings out the reflective side in me. I start thinking about my many blessings and how sometimes I take them for granted. I think about holidays past, present, and future. I always feel a sense of wonder and contentment and gratitude when Thanksgiving rolls around. While I should (and try to) remember to be thankful year round, I believe a specific time set apart to remind us of our blessings is a good thing, a way to get us back on track. So, on this chilly morning, as I lay here in bed, I ponder on the things that I'm really thankful for. And if you'll indulge me, I'll share just a few with you. I'm thankful for a warm house on chilly mornings. I'm thankful for a vehicle that gets me where I'm going. I'm thankful for the chance to go to church today. I'm thankful for my little dog, all curled up in his bed. I'm thankful for the gift of music and song. I'm thankful that my problems are no worse than what they are. I'm thankful for this season of singleness. I'm thankful for a family that, though imperfect, loves me. I'm thankful that I live in a country where I'm free to worship and live for God. I'm thankful that I'm still able to walk, breathe, and do the things I love. I'm thankful that my family is still whole, healthy, and safe. I'm thankful for the sight of our horses grazing in my parents' field. I'm thankful for friends that care about me. I'm thankful for a job that is challenging and rewarding. I'm thankful for our veterans that have given so much to preserve this land. I'm thankful for parents that loved me enough to raise me to know God. I'm thankful for a brother and sisters that will forever be my best friends. I'm thankful for this peace that passes understanding. I'm thankful for a Savior who left His home to give His life for me. I'm thankful for a Heavenly Father who loved me enough to give up His own Son. I'm thankful for my salvation and that blessed hope of a life beyond this one. I'm thankful there is a Heaven where there will be no more death, sorrow, or pain. I'm thankful for a Friend that sticks closer than a brother. I'm thankful that God has a specific plan for my life. I'm thankful that I am His, forever and always.... In His Grip! "In everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." 1 Thessalonians 5:18 So, what are you thankful for? Feel free to comment and share! God bless you this holiday season!
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Aahhh. Fall! Nothing brings me more contentment and appreciation than this season. Watching the leaves turn vibrant colors. Decorating my house with pumpkins and cornstalks. Wearing my cozy hoodies and boots. Going to bonfires and hayrides. Watching my sisters’ goat get positively plump with their thickening coats. And baking! I go crazy for baking fall-inspired flavors, such as pumpkin, apple, caramel, etc. etc! It may sound corny, but my family seems to come alive this time of year. We tend to participate in more outdoor activities, such as impromptu games of volleyball and romps with the dogs, rather than in spring or summer. To me, it’s a wonderful time of year, full of beauty and promise. Sadly, not everyone feels this way. I have known people personally who hate this season. I can understand their reasoning: chillier temperatures, darker evenings, and the inevitable winter that’s right around the corner. However, I choose to look at the fall as one last gift of beauty before the cold days of winter descend. And, I refuse to allow myself to miss what opportunities this season may hold for me. Maybe a framed snapshot of my parent’s fields, awash with color. Or a walk down the leaf-strewn driveway with my sister. I don’t want to spend this whole season with my head down, in the mullygrubs, just because it’s not what I would prefer for this time. I’m trying to take on that attitude about life, as well. When I’m in a possibly less-than-ideal season, I don’t want to miss out on what it has to offer because I’m wishing for it to end, or dreading what’s to come. I choose to look at this time of my life as a season of beauty and opportunity; it’s a chance to grow in contentment and appreciation for what is front of me right now. Whatever it may be. I know that I have to have those seasons of fall and even winter, so that I may fully enjoy the seasons of spring and summer. I would never be able to witness the trees’ new blossoms if they never shed their former glory. The trickling spring beds would soon dry up if not for the fall rains and winter snows. The fields would never produce their bounty of wheat, corn, or flowers if they did not have those seasons of rest that autumn brings. I can’t have one without the other. And if I had nothing but spring rains and flowers, it's inevitable that I would soon grow weary of those. Maybe it’s those “undesirable” seasons that teach me to appreciate the others. They all work together to create this wonderful, beautiful life that I’m a part of. So, this fall, I challenge you to look at this season of your life differently. Whether it’s this fall season, or a time of singleness, or a challenging job situation. Choose to have an optimistic view. Look for the beauty in it. Learn from it. Grow with it. Make memories. And always find contentment in being… In His Grip! Crystal "To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven." Ecclesiastes 3:1 “Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower.”
― Albert Camus “You expected to be sad in the fall. Part of you died each year when the leaves fell from the trees and their branches were bare against the wind and the cold, wintery light. But you knew there would always be the spring, as you knew the river would flow again after it was frozen."― Ernest Hemingway, A Moveable Feast “Fall has always been my favorite season. The time when everything bursts with its last beauty, as if nature had been saving up all year for the grand finale.” ― Lauren DeStefano, Wither Those who know me well know one thing: I'm a HUGE Southern Gospel fan! Especially groups like The Booth Brothers, Greater Vision, Legacy Five, Tribute, the Collingsworth Family, the Talleys--well, I could go on (and on!), but I'll spare you the long list! In honor of the National Quartet Convention gearing up this week, I though I'd highlight this wonderful genre. One of my all-time favorite hobbies is going to Southern Gospel concerts. I know what you're thinking: "You like to sit and listen to a bunch of people sing church songs for 2 hours? What fun." But it's true. I've attended dozens of concerts, and don't see a stopping point yet. In fact, I've made it a personal goal of mine to see as many groups as I can, while I can! If someone were to ask me why, I'd have to give several reasons. For one, I am super impressed by talent. And I'm not talking about someone who's "pretty good", but has real, undeniable, mind-blowing, God-given talent. And simply put, you won't find more talented people than the ones I find here. In my opinion, many of these men and women could sing circles around a lot of the top-earning music-makers today. (Check out Lauren Talley singing "Lord, I Believe" and see what I mean!) And I've yet to hear harmony that sounds any sweeter. (Don't believe me? You've never heard the Booth Brothers do "In Christ Alone" have you?) And the music! Such gifted musicians! (Such as the late great Anthony Burger whose parents were told he would never be able to use his hands after a serious burn when he was a toddler!) While on the subject of talent, I'd be remiss if I didn't address the songwriters. Songwriters like Bill and Gloria Gaither are renowned the world over for songs like "Because He Lives" and "He Touched Me." And Rodney Griffin, who has penned scores of award-winning songs, has been voted Singing News favorite songwriter for sixteen consecutive years! And songs such as Mark Lowry's "Mary, Did You Know?" have become huge hits for popular artists in rock, country, and pop as well as gospel. So many songs, all so different in style, lyrics, and melody. And I find that for every situation that I may be facing, there is almost always a song to go with it. Like when I am especially discouraged, I find comfort in the Collingsworth Family's song "It Matters to the Master," or the Booth Brothers' "Every Cry is Heard." When I find myself reflecting back on all God has brought me through, I can sing along with Brian Free and Assurance when they sing "Say Amen." I am reminded of what I should be doing as a Christian by the Collingsworths' call to "Give a Little Love and Kindness" or Lauren Talley's "Go the Extra Mile." And if I've recently lost someone dear to me, I am comforted by Legacy Five's "Hello After Goodbye" or the Perry's "Celebrate Me Home." And when I get to thinking about Heaven, I love to hear Tribute sing "Homecoming Day." "The One I'm Dying For" (the Isaacs) remind me of Jesus' sacrificial love. Yes, the songs-the message and the melody- certainly draw me to Southern Gospel music. But I find that I genuinely like the people as well. These men and women are endearing and personable and entertaining. Each one brings something differing to the table: Josh Singletary's antics and bow ties; Lauren Talley's passion and sunny smile; Gerald Wolfe's experience and dedication. Yes, I know that while on stage and in public they are presenting their best front. (Who wouldn't?) But I've personally met many of the ones I've talked about. And while I don't pretend to be God and know the true state of anyone's heart, I feel that I'm a pretty good judge of character, and in my experience, these people are real. I've heard their testimonies, seen their tears, and witnessed their worship of their Savior. I've watched them stop to talk with their fans. (I was touched one evening watching Michael Booth crouching on one knee to share an unhurried conversation with a gentleman bound to a wheelchair.) I've seen them work their product tables themselves so they can meet their listeners. I have only ever found them to be gracious and friendly and genuine. They sacrifice time with their families to share the gospel and encourage God's people. Now, lest anyone reading this feels that I'm putting these people on a pedestal, let me assure you that I'm not. I know that they're all human, with their own faults, wrinkles, and weaknesses. I can even go so far as to say that I don't agree with everything I've seen or heard from them. But that doesn't change how I feel about them. We're all different, with different perspectives, convictions, and opinions. And that's okay with me. We are all, imperfect though we may be, part of the family of God. But I guess one of the main reasons I am such a follower of Southern Gospel is what it does for me personally. The songs, the people, the message they share night after night- they all work together to truly bless me. I am challenged, I am encouraged, I am blessed when I get to spend an evening with any one of these groups, and yes, I am entertained as well. And for a single person without a family to devote my time, energy, and heart to, that means a lot. And no, I'm not saying that to make you feel sorry for me. (Because I don't feel sorry for me!) But it's the truth. And I find that this music, whether in live concert or by cds, lifts me up. It gives me an outlet, and reminds me that there's more to life than what I currently have or don't have. Such as God's grace, His unending love for me, the sacrifice on the cross Jesus made for my salvation. And when current events start to make me feel small, insignificant, and fearful, it reminds me that there is still an army of Christians standing up for Jesus, proclaiming the gospel of Jesus in the best way they know how: in song. To be honest, I could give another dozen reasons why I love it all, but I've rambled on long enough. If you've never experienced a night of this kind of music, I hope that something I said would compel you to give it a shot. Or maybe you're in a low point in your life and in need of some kind of assurance that God has not forgotten you. I would encourage you to try any of these songs or groups I've mentioned. It may not be the most "popular" (by the world's standards) brand of music, but I promise it will be one of the most meaningful. So, from a single to all those Southern Gospel groups out there, I want to say, "Thank You." Thank you for your long nights, endless travel, physical weariness, and separation from family. Thank you for your songs, your smiles and your stories. And thank you for blessing me, when I so desperately needed it, with your example, your gift, your heart, and your message. I can't tell you what it all really means to me. As they all prepare for their biggest week of the year, I pray for safe travels and that they receive even just a little of what they bring to me and so many others. And I hope that they have fun! I've not, as of yet, been fortunate enough to attend a National Quartet Convention (it's on my bucket list, though!), but my sisters and I are planning on watching it through live streaming. And I have to say, it may not be the same as being there in person, but I am still looking forward to it! A whole week of my favorite groups and artists, a whole week of music! So, until next time, may all of us-singles, gospel artists, fans, etc.-remember that we are always (in the words of another great gospel artist, Roger Bennett)... In His Grip! Crystal "O come, let us sing unto the Lord: let us make a joyful noise unto the rock of our salvation." Psalm 95:1
I know it's been a while since I've posted, but in case you haven't noticed, it's my birthday! So I thought I would celebrate.
In years past, I haven't always felt so inclined to celebrate. I always felt like something was missing. However, I've since learned that what I was missing was not so much outward as inward. I spent so much time wishing for what I didn't have, that I didn't appreciate the gifts I already had. I am thankful for the 35 years God has given me. I'm thankful that I am still able to celebrate my birthday with my family, and that I still have the health to enjoy it. I'm thankful for the greatest gift anyone could ever receive, and that's the gift of my salvation, bought and paid for by my Savior. I'm thankful that, by His grace, I now am able to accept and appreciate my life as it is right now. And I'm thankful for this birthday! I got to see two of my favorite groups (Tribute quartet and the Talleys) last night and spent time with my family today. I didn't get any expensive gifts, just a few thoughtful ones. I didn't go out to eat at a fancy restaurant, but stayed home for tacos. I didn't have a party with friends, but spent an evening with some of my favorite singers and a few dozen strangers. And that was all right with me. I don't need a lot. I have my family. I have my health. I have a future to look forward to. I've had 35 years of love, laughter, and life. And I have my Jesus. What better gift could I possibly ask for? Remember when you were a kid, how you would go to your mom or dad and ask for something? Whether it be a cookie, or a toy, or permission to stay at a friend's house. "Mom, Dad, can I...?" Then you would hold your breath in anticipation for the answer. If it was yes, then we'd dance, cheer, throw our arms around them for giving us our heart's desire. But if the answer was "No," our reaction was completely different. Remember? I remember whining, cajoling, bribing, crying, stamping my foot to get them to see things my way. As I got older, my methods changed. I would promise something in return, such as altered behavior, a clean room, extra chores, etc. Or I would logically point out all the reasons they should agree to my request. Sometimes it would work and they would change their minds. And then the celebration would begin. And then sometimes, they would still say no. Oh, how that would irk me! Especially when they couldn't give what I thought was a decent reason why. "Because I know better," or "Because I said so," just did not fly with me. So, fast forward a few years, and I no longer have to ask my parents for the things I want. However, I find myself now relying on my Heavenly Father for things that are outside my power to control. For example, there's this house that I have my eye on. In my mind, it's perfect. Not far from my parents' home. Nice and roomy for when family and friends come to visit. A barn for my horse. A fenced in yard for my dog. Everything I need and desire in a home. So, I pray about it and put in my request. "Lord, will you please make a way for me to get this house?" To my surprise, God says no. "But, God, this is the best time! I'm financially secure enough to afford the payments. It's so close to my family. I need this house!" And He still says, "No." "But, why???" I whine. "What possible reason could there be?" And then that infuriating response. "Because I say so. And because I know what is best." Excuse me while I "AAUURGH!!!!" (Oh, it's ok. God can totally take my tantrums.) Ever been there? Whether it's a house, a job, a spouse, a child, a healing, or whatever your heart is fixed on at this point in time. Sometimes, God just says, "No. Not right now." And there's no words to fully express our frustration. But He understands. And He knows we're human and weak. But all He asks is that we continue to trust Him, and to put our future and heart's desires in His hands. Even the Apostle Paul struggled with this. In 2 Corinthians 12:8, 9, it says "For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me. And he said unto me, 'My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.' Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." So, it's okay to not always understand it or even like it. We didn't always as kids, did we? But as we got older, we began to see why. And someday, we may understand why God said no. In the meantime, may we ever remember that His grace will be sufficient, and we are always... In His Grip! Crystal P.S. I hope you will be blessed by this song by the Akins. I know I was! I recently read a couple posts by two separate friends on Facebook, expressing their struggle on this particular holiday. Both are happily married and enjoy good relationships with their mothers. But they have yet to experience the blessings of motherhood. Thus it makes this day rather bittersweet. And I have to admit, I can relate. While I feel so fortunate that I can spend this day with my own wonderful mother, and appreciate so much that she is still here with me, I long for the time that I can actually celebrate being a mother myself. I may not be in the place in my life where I am actually ready to start a family, like so many married couples who struggle with infertility. But that doesn't keep me from desiring children of my own. And it can be difficult to sit in a Mother's Day church service year after year where mothers are lauded as God's precious gifts to mankind and wonder why I haven't been given that privilege yet. But, even in the midst of the longing, I have found peace. No, I'm not always happy with my situation, and no I don't skip about life without a care. I ache to hold my own baby. I envy every new mother. I have had to accept the fact that I will never win the "Youngest Mother" gift at my church. Or any mother's gift at all. I don't always feel peaceful. And sometimes I cry. But always, I am reminded of how much God loves me. I may not understand His plan for my life, but I know that He has one. He hasn't forgotten me. And I also know that He is enough. As much as I long for a family of my own, I have come to the place that He is truly all I need. I have given my dreams and desires to Him, surrendered my will to His. I used to wonder when people talked about "giving it to God." How does one go about doing that? How can someone suddenly stop wanting something and accept what God wants instead? Well, I guess the best way that I can explain it is that I have come to the place where I realized that nothing is going to fill my life and my heart the way Jesus can. Nothing is going to make me truly happy, save my relationship with the Lord. And while that desire may not ever go away completely, I am content to know that when I am feeling lonely or empty, God's grace will be sufficient. And I find that the more I surrender to Him, the more I give up my dreams and goals and plans, the more peace I have. No, that's not to say that I have suddenly lost my desire to be a mother. Far from it. I still hope for it someday. But I have learned that for now, I can be content. I can rest in the knowledge that He is enough. So, for all those ladies out there, married or single, that are still longing to be mothers, let me encourage you. God loves you. He feels your pain, and is willing to share it. And while this day may be difficult to get through, I hope you will be blessed in some way. And I hope that the desires of your heart will someday be fulfilled. But I hope that you will also find your greatest source of comfort, joy, and peace in the arms of our Heavenly Father. Because we are always In His Grip! Crystal No matter how lonely you get or how many birth announcements you receive, the trick is not to get frightened. There's nothing wrong with being alone."
-Wendy Wasserstein One of my favorite movies is the Anne of Green Gables miniseries. Anne Shirley had a knack of getting in and out of scrapes, and in the meantime, building a wealth of memories and experiences she could draw on later. I was always inspired by the plucky redhead's ambition, creativity, and independence. She was her own person, not moved by the latest fads or the popular crowd. Something we could all learn from! There was a quote in the very first movie that she latched on to, finding comfort and encouragement. I loved it as well, and adopted it as a motto of my own. The quote? "Tomorrow is always fresh, with no mistakes in it." And for a girl like Anne Shirley, that could be quite a comfort! But, I find that it works in the real world as well. How many times have we slipped and said or done something we shouldn't have? Sometimes simple mistakes can cast a cloud over the whole day. A misspoken word can cause hurt feelings, which can turn into an angry dispute, and cause a whole friendship to suddenly take a turn. Or maybe we did not finish that to-do list, making us feel that we've not accomplished enough in our allotted twenty-fours hours. Or maybe our day was interrupted by a phone call, and we ended up sitting in a hospital room with a loved one. Or, even worse, spent the day in a state of shock and grief over an unexpected loss. We can't change the events in our lives. We can't snap our fingers and relive the past 24 hours. How I wish we could at times! There are a few days for which I'd like to have a do-over. But life doesn't work that way. We can't erase what has already been done. But here's the good news! God's mercy is new every morning! Don't believe me? Check out Lamentation 3:23. And this is coming from a guy who wrote a whole book of his cries of despair and discouragement! We don't have to face a new day with dread. What's done is done. What's behind us in behind us. We have a new day, a clean slate, with no marks on it. Now, as Anne Shirley's wise teacher reminded her, it doesn't have any mistakes on it "yet," but we get a new chance every day. So, as we face this new week, (that's a whole seven days of fresh starts!) let us remember who our days belong to. "This is the day that the Lord has made!" He's given us a new day. So, let's put all of our mistakes, regrets, unfinished tasks, etc. behind us in yesterday. And let's look forward to our tomorrows! And remember, we are always... In His Grip! Crystal "I have learned to live each day as it comes, and not to borrow trouble by dreading tomorrow. It is the dark menace of the future that makes cowards of us."
-Dorothea Dix And by "adventures," I'm not exactly talking about rock climbing or sky-diving. I'm not planning a vacation to an exotic location any time soon, and I don't see any drag racing in my near future, either. Not everyone can manage those kinds of adventures-single or married! Not all adventures have to be death-defying, expensive, or time-consuming. They don't even have to always take you out of the house. They can be small, every day moments of new experiences, joy, growth, pleasure, and maybe sometimes even sorrow. Lately, I've discovered my life is full of such moments, whether they be in reading a new book, starting my summer vacation, hearing a song by my favorite group, or writing a blog! And I'm loving every minute of it! For years, I felt that I was in a "waiting period." I couldn't really start experiencing all that life and God had to offer-- the way so many of my friends and family seemed to be experiencing-- until I was married, or at least in a serious relationship. I couldn't embrace new changes, soar to new heights, or accept new challenges, all for fear I would mess things up for any future relationships. Thus, I was stuck in a rut, unable to truly experience everything within my reach, because I was waiting for...someone to have those experiences with. It finally hit me. (Sometimes it takes a while for me to get something.) What was I waiting for? God never intended that I find a mate for me to start truly living and enjoying the blessings and adventures He has for me. My new life, rich with purpose and fulfillment, started the day I accepted the Lord Jesus into my life. So why was I limiting myself to finding happiness with a partner? I had already found the greatest Partner I could ever hope to find. When I realized that liberating truth, I was able to truly see the challenges, opportunities, and experiences in my life as the adventures they really were. I experienced more joy in these moments-- big and small-- than I ever had before. And I can look back with satisfaction and contentment, knowing that I have not been wasting my time for my adventures to really begin. Since then, I have been able to experience many kids of adventures that filled me with a sense of joy, contentment, and fulfillment. Recently, my sister and I both started a new adventure by opening up a boutique. Believe me, it was not easy and we've had our hitches. We could almost hear the scoffers and doubters. (Why would they do something like that? I just don't see it lasting. And so forth.) But we didn't care. Why NOT do it now? And who knows, maybe it won't last. But at least we won't look back in years to come and wonder what would've happened. But in the meantime, we're having a blast playing with clothes and meeting people. And I'm not stopping there. I recently discovered a new hobby: backyard farming! I've really developed a taste for growing things. I don't have a lot of space where I'm living, so I'm learning how to make the best of what I've got and improvise. I love to make lists, so I've got my 5 year plan laid out. It may not seem like much to some people, but I'm enjoying myself. Some may read this and think to themselves, "Adventures? Seriously?" And that's okay. My definition of adventure may be different from yours. But I encourage everyone reading this post to go out and look for your own adventure, whether it be getting a new pet, visiting a new restaurant, getting reacquainted with an old friend, or witnessing to someone of the Lord's goodness. There's nothing more exciting than waking up each day and wondering what's in store for the future! God's richest blessings on your future adventures! "It's not how many years we live, but how we live them." -Evangeline Booth It hit me one day...I was single! Okay, actually I already knew that. In fact, I had been long troubled by that very fact. Here I was, in my thirties, still with no serious relationship to boast of. I had stood back and watched my friends all marry and start families of their own. Then my younger brother and sister's friends all began to marry and have families. Then, worst of all, the kids I babysat for began to marry and have babies! I lost count of the weddings and bridal/baby showers I attended. Usually, I went home depressed and ready to cry for the rest of the day. I know, it sounds pitiful, but that was my life for about ten years. I was constantly on the lookout for that ONE. Every time a new guy would show up at my church or job, my hopes would spring news, only to quickly shrivel up and die as I watched him pair off with someone else. It seemed I was never good enough to catch a decent guy's attention. It began to wreak havoc on my self-image. I figured there must be something wrong with me. I wasn't pretty enough, smart enough, witty enough, or outgoing enough. Or maybe God didn't deem me ready. Thus I tried to be a good little Christian, always going to church, reading my Bible, and living the way I thought He wanted me to live. Nothing happened. I was still single and watching my "youthful" years slowly pass me by. I felt as if I was constantly on the sidelines, watching everyone else living their lives, and I was still waiting. I began to grow bitter about it, and resentful of everyone God had seen fit to bless with that special someone in their life. It was even worse when I witnessed children being born into families that cared little for them. Here I was, desperate to have a child to call my own, while so many babies were being discarded or abused. Oh, on the outside, everything appeared fine. I smiled a lot, held friends' babies, attended weddings, and generally appeared as if all was fine in my world. But I felt as I was dying inside. And no one even knew, which I took to mean that no one even cared. (Which was unreasonable, because, like I said, very few knew the depth of my struggle.) I grew angry and depressed. For whatever reason, God and the world was against me. I was not meant to share in the blessings of thousands of others. I was to live out my life alone. It wasn't fair and I inwardly kicked and raged at it at times. Needless to say, my spiritual growth suffered as a result. While I never walked away from God, and I had times of revival and refreshing that kept me going, I always felt as if something was missing. I was never truly content. Then, about a year and half ago, I started to do some soul-searching. I took a step back and reevaluated my life. I realized that marriage and children would not ultimately fill that hole in my life. I had witnessed too many people who seemingly had it all, throw everything away because of depression, addiction, or some other prison. Mothers and fathers were committing suicide. Men and women who married their childhood sweetheart were divorcing. Parents were losing their children because of bad choices. So what was happening? These people had what I wanted: a companion, children, a home to share, a future to look forward to. Then it finally began to dawn on me. Those things, as priceless as they can be, mean nothing when a person is missing the most important relationship they could ever have. It took some time, but I began to reshape my thinking. Even if God suddenly opened the door for me to become a wife and mother, ultimately, it would not make me happy. Oh, it would bring me a sense of joy for a while, but in the end, it's not what my spirit yearns for. It's not what's going to fill me with peace and contentment. Only Jesus can do that for me. It was not easy reaching that conclusion. I'm an emotional human being that deals with what I feel in the here and now. But it was a step in the right direction, and I felt that God was better able to work in me and start teaching me some new things about myself and Him. It's been a rewarding journey so far. Does that knowledge take away the desire to be married and have children some day? No. But I can finally enjoy the place where I'm at. I felt as if God had finally released me to appreciate my life as it is. I don't have the same responsibilities, obligations, past regrets, etc. that many people my age have. I can be free to live out this phase of my life as I please. I knew I had turned a corner one day when I was sitting in my truck in the Wal-Mart parking lot. (I think I was waiting on my mom.) I watched a young woman park her car, get out, and begin the process of unbuckling her baby from the car seat, gather her bag, and carry them all the long distance to the building. I found myself thinking how simple it is for me to jump in my truck and take off somewhere. No car seat. No extra diaper bag. I actually caught myself thinking that I was glad I did not have to worry about all that stuff yet. And that's when it hit me. I was single! This was my time. Someday in the future, I may have those extra responsibilities and blessings. But for now, it's just me and God. He has shown me that it is okay to be single; it can even be a good thing. So, I plan to take advantage of this time now, rather than wasting any of it by wishing it to change. So, if I could pass anything on to you, it would be take advantage of this season of your life. Don't look at this as a punishment, but an opportunity to serve God in a special way. Look for new things to try and learn. Have fun! Grow! And find peace in knowing that even as singles, we are never truly alone but are always... In His Grip! Crystal "The most interesting and important thing in the world is for you to work out your own particular life...Hold your place. Do not try to shift into the place that another occupies. Keep your eye on what you have to work with, not on what somebody else has." -Ida Tarbell
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